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An Open Mind
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I (Erin) am the director and owner of A School for Self & Energy Awareness.  The school resided on SE Belmont for 30 years before I retired my practice in 2016.

I am a native Oregonian. I earned my Bachelor of Science degree from Portland State University in 1983 and after a short career as a public school teacher, started my healing arts practice, in Portland, in 1986.

My clairvoyant and healing abilities are a combination of natural talent, study, life experience and lots and lots of practice.  My philosophy and teaching style combine a commitment to spiritual awareness, social responsibility and practical common sense values.

Born sensitive and altruistic, along with my professional career as a clairvoyant healer and teacher, I have been an active volunteer.

Raphael House (a shelter home for domestic violence victims) 1979-1984

Oregon Literacy (teaching adults to read)  1992-1993

Portland Public School (classroom volunteer) 2000-2011

Children International Sponsor 2007-present

                                                                                                                          You leave a part of yourself behind whenever and wherever you experience trauma from which you cannot fully recover. When you lose a part of your signature self it may give you a feeling like you lost a part of our soul, but it is more accurate to say that part of your unique energy have been made stagnate and therefore was left behind while time marched on.

In some circles, recovering lost original essence is called soul retrieval, but I’m not convinced one’s soul can actually be lost due to trauma. I believe losing your soul involves selling it out and going down a road of corruption. Other than this predicament, there is no such thing as too far away.  Where ever you left yourself, you are there waiting to be found again. You never have to be separated from a part of yourself forever. If you are looking, you will always eventually find your missing pieces. To expedite the usual waiting period however, you can learn the tools and techniques of meditation and healing energy.  With understanding you can actively seek out your energy and consciously retrieve it.

During meditation to find lost parts of yourself, your attention will repeatedly wander to actually physical places from the past where there is much healing to be done.  For a reason important to you, a part of your essence was left behind in these actual physical places, as the rest of you moved on, lived life and aged.

There will be hot spots.  For me I’ve spent a lot of meditation time at childhood places; playgrounds, gymnasiums, schools and houses.  Recently, just as I finally came to the end of picking up all of me from my grandmother’s house in SE Portland in real life I turned on an episode of Portlandia to see Carrie and Fred sitting on what was Helen’s front porch (really.)  Someone else owns Helen’s now but I recognized it in an instant.  After all I had been spending a lot of time there lately.

The week before she was going to teach me how to make soap, Helen had a stroke that put her in a coma from which she never recovered.  Helen was old school, making all of her own soap and never converting from her wood burning stove.  She liked it that way.  I got interested in do it yourself, handmade things because of her and her sister Martha.  They were excellent sewers and crafters.

Although I may have all of me back from her old house, I’m guessing Helen and her dog Suzy probably still come to visit from time to time.

It’s possible to bring parts of yourself back from places you didn’t know you were too.  Once during a meditation I found a part of myself in the form of a ghost sitting in a rocking chair in an old farm house. I was a little embarrassed to be such a cliché, inhabiting a house I hadn’t been alive in for over a hundred years.  As I collected myself from the rocking chair, now healed enough to bring that part of me through to the present, I noticed the people who now live in the house were aware their mascot was leaving.  They must have grown accustomed to their ghost. I excused myself and both parts of me, past and present, left together, never to be separated again.  (Sometimes a person just knows too much to let such a lengthy separation be repeated.)

You don’t have to be an expert to become more complete, and you don’t need a secret that only some people have. If you understand that parts of you are scattered about and consciously and diligently look, you will find yourself. And when you reunite with yourself from the past and she asks you, “What took you so long?” you can reassure the ghost in you that you were learning as fast as you could and looking to the ends of the earth, so that you could bring her home.

Non-resistance is the ability to stay in connected observation while remembering you are made of matter that is non-solid. Acquiring the ability to allow non-resistance to prevail mentally and energetically, even under stress, for prolonged periods of time, is an essential element for transformation.  It takes a lot of thoughtfulness, power and time to heal and it cannot be done without the accompaniment of non-resistance.

Its opposite, resistance, is solid.  In the physical world you might need a solid object to protect you from outside danger. But in the energy world the best protection is to remember that your molecules are constantly in motion.   As a matter of protection, non-resistance enables you to stay in your own space and let things that you cannot outright deflect, pass through you instead.

Situations in childhood often lead children to self-teach some form of non-resistance.  When a child needs power or information beyond her years, she often comes up with the technique of non-solidity and knows this helps provide a solution.

I learned the concept of non-resistance in my childhood from Floyd.  Floyd was a beekeeper.  Non-resistance is the most important virtue a beekeeper can have.  I watched Floyd model non-resistance, so when I was ten years old and the opportunity to be a junior beekeeper was offered, I was confident and poised. I knew I would not fail.  Failing, in beekeeping means: to become resistant.   It means to lose your centering, forget that you are in communion with nature and panic.  A common reaction for people who resist bees is to run.  If you run, you endanger yourself and the other members of your team.

Back in the day Floyd had up to 5 hives at a time in his backyard.  He loved the bees and the bees loved him and I believed him when he said that honey bees were our friends.  And so I did not panic when I helped take the frames of over flowing honey from the hives and replace them with fresh ones. Hundreds of honey bees landed on me and swarmed all around me (in my protective clothing) but I was not afraid. I did not run.  I did my part in the project and stayed in non-resistance.

Not surprisingly, Floyd had few fans of his beekeeping hobby.  People just couldn’t get the non-resistance part down-even when it involved harmless honey bees, albeit a lot of them.  But I did.  I slid right into an understanding of the basics of beekeeping that was beyond my years thanks to my grasp of non-resistance.

Recently, I went and looked at the old site where Floyd's honey bees thrived.  The empty lot adjacent to his backyard is for sale, so I was free to peruse. The region of the yard where the hives sat is still a throw away part of what is now someone else's yard.  It wasn’t hard to tune in and see the hub of bee activity that filled the yard decades ago because no one has brought the energy of the site into present time.  Floyd would appreciate that.