I (Erin) am the director and owner of A School for Self & Energy Awareness. The school resided on SE Belmont for 30 years before I retired my practice in 2016.
I am a native Oregonian. I earned my Bachelor of Science degree from Portland State University in 1983 and after a short career as a public school teacher, started my healing arts practice, in Portland, in 1986.
My clairvoyant and healing abilities are a combination of natural talent, study, life experience and lots and lots of practice. My philosophy and teaching style combine a commitment to spiritual awareness, social responsibility and practical common sense values.
Born sensitive and altruistic, along with my professional career as a clairvoyant healer and teacher, I have been an active volunteer.
Raphael House (a shelter home for domestic violence victims) 1979-1984
Oregon Literacy (teaching adults to read) 1992-1993
Portland Public School (classroom volunteer) 2000-2011
Children International Sponsor 2007-present
You leave a part of yourself behind whenever and wherever you
experience trauma from which you cannot fully recover. When you lose a part of your
signature self it may give you a feeling like you lost a part of our soul, but
it is more accurate to say that part of your unique energy have been made
stagnate and therefore was left behind while time marched on.
In some circles, recovering lost original essence is called
soul retrieval, but I’m not convinced one’s soul can actually be lost due to
trauma. I believe losing your soul involves selling it out and going down a
road of corruption. Other than this predicament, there is no such thing as too
far away. Where ever you left yourself,
you are there waiting to be found again. You never have to be separated from a
part of yourself forever. If you are looking, you will always eventually find
your missing pieces. To expedite the usual waiting period however, you can
learn the tools and techniques of meditation and healing energy. With understanding you can actively seek out
your energy and consciously retrieve it.
During meditation to find lost parts of yourself, your
attention will repeatedly wander to actually physical places from the past
where there is much healing to be done.
For a reason important to you, a part of your essence was left behind in
these actual physical places, as the rest of you moved on, lived life and aged.
There will be hot spots.
For me I’ve spent a lot of meditation time at childhood places;
playgrounds, gymnasiums, schools and houses.
Recently, just as I finally came to the end of picking up all of me from
my grandmother’s house in SE Portland in real life I turned on an episode of
Portlandia to see Carrie and Fred sitting on what was Helen’s front porch
(really.) Someone else owns Helen’s now but I recognized it in an instant.
After all I had been spending a lot of time there lately.
The week before she was going to teach me how to make soap, Helen
had a stroke that put her in a coma from which she never recovered. Helen was old school, making all of her own
soap and never converting from her wood burning stove. She liked it that way. I got interested in do it yourself, handmade
things because of her and her sister Martha. They were excellent sewers and crafters.
Although I may have all of me back from her old house, I’m
guessing Helen and her dog Suzy probably still come to visit from time to time.
It’s possible to bring parts of yourself back from places
you didn’t know you were too. Once
during a meditation I found a part of myself in the form of a ghost sitting in
a rocking chair in an old farm house. I was a little embarrassed to be such a
cliché, inhabiting a house I hadn’t been alive in for over a hundred
years. As I collected myself from the
rocking chair, now healed enough to bring that part of me through to the
present, I noticed the people who now live in the house were aware their mascot
was leaving. They must have grown accustomed
to their ghost. I excused myself and both parts of me, past and present, left
together, never to be separated again. (Sometimes
a person just knows too much to let such a lengthy separation be repeated.)
You don’t have to be an expert to become more complete, and
you don’t need a secret that only some people have. If you understand that
parts of you are scattered about and consciously and diligently look, you will
find yourself. And when you reunite with yourself from the past and she asks you,
“What took you so long?” you can reassure the ghost in you that you were
learning as fast as you could and looking to the ends of the earth, so that you
could bring her home.
Non-resistance is the ability to stay in connected
observation while remembering you are made of matter that is non-solid. Acquiring
the ability to allow non-resistance to prevail mentally and energetically, even
under stress, for prolonged periods of time, is an essential element for
transformation. It takes a lot of
thoughtfulness, power and time to heal and it cannot be done without the accompaniment
Its opposite, resistance, is solid. In the physical world you might need a solid
object to protect you from outside danger. But in the energy world the best
protection is to remember that your molecules are constantly in motion. As a matter of protection, non-resistance
enables you to stay in your own space and let things that you cannot outright
deflect, pass through you instead.
Situations in childhood often lead children to self-teach
some form of non-resistance. When a child
needs power or information beyond her years, she often comes
up with the technique of non-solidity and knows this helps provide a solution.
I learned the concept of non-resistance in my childhood from
Floyd. Floyd was a beekeeper. Non-resistance is the most important virtue a
beekeeper can have. I watched Floyd
model non-resistance, so when I was ten years old and the
opportunity to be a junior beekeeper was offered, I was confident and poised. I
knew I would not fail. Failing, in beekeeping
means: to become resistant. It means to
lose your centering, forget that you are in communion with nature and
panic. A common reaction for people who
resist bees is to run. If you run, you
endanger yourself and the other members of your team.
Back in the day Floyd had up to 5 hives at a time in his
backyard. He loved the bees and the bees
loved him and I believed him when he said that honey bees were our friends. And so I did not panic when I helped take the
frames of over flowing honey from the hives and replace them with fresh ones. Hundreds
of honey bees landed on me and swarmed all around me (in my protective clothing)
but I was not afraid. I did not run. I
did my part in the project and stayed in non-resistance.
Not surprisingly, Floyd had few fans of his beekeeping
hobby. People just couldn’t get the
non-resistance part down-even when it involved harmless honey bees,
albeit a lot of them. But I did. I slid right into an understanding of
basics of beekeeping that was beyond my years thanks to my grasp of
Recently, I went and looked at the old site where Floyd's honey
bees thrived. The empty lot adjacent to
his backyard is for sale, so I was free to peruse. The region of the yard where
the hives sat is still a throw away part of what is now someone else's yard. It wasn’t hard to tune in and see the hub of
bee activity that filled the yard decades ago because no one has brought the
energy of the site into present time.
Floyd would appreciate that.